ifind myself battling this controversial admittance
ironically enough, it started in the kitchen
she asked for a glass of water, but what she really wanted
was ATTENTION
still wishing i’d starved my male temptation
instead of feeding blindly my starving nature
i, needing little persuasion in erasing
a 12 year relationship but my level of ownership
doesn’t require me to confess, only to do my best
in cleaning up my mess, while dealing with this stress
but at a different level really dealing with myself
i’ve convinced myself that whether or not
i decide to tell her, we would be better off
if i pretended that it never took place
just in case my denial does an unannounced
about
face
because i refuse to admit
besides i’ve already repented to God
because only He can judge me
so who cares about moral opinions
this is our life so just mine your business!
my intentions were noble
a glass of water for her, and me a soda
i told you that i’ve already faced my demons
and quite honestly, i don’t feel as if i was actually cheating
see she came on to me, as i grabbed on my wallet
trying to squeeze pass me, as she brushed against my body
and then tried to kiss me as she pressed up against me
making me even more uneasy because this was her sister!
now i’m being pushed in a corner
trying hard to ignore her
and all i can see in my future
is alimony and a lawyer
so i refuse to subject myself to a life sentence
through this self-inflicted controversial admittance
